What’s that? Finally after three months? Haha yes, you’d be correct. But, hey at least its here and I didn’t forget about it? I’ve just been busy this semester. For some reason my studious efforts aren’t making a difference for some reason….but that’s not really important haha. This needed to be updated and ideas started flowing so here we are 🙂 I think this chapter is the same length as the most. Hopefully you can make it through!
Also, the family tree has been updated! Seems our boy, Leon has been busy. He is married, and has a daughter! 🙂 Go check it out for details. It seems Nadine’s suspicions were right, they got married because Sofia was pregnant. I think that’s it. Oh, just remember (in case you forgot haha) chapters are written from the heir’s POV (otherwise stated) and in diary form.
This chapter is more dialog than “diary form”. Oh, and I would note that the international events that are occuring in this chapter are not real, and not based off of anything in particular. It was just me and my creative mind. Though, if it seems similar to something, note that I did not plagiarize anything. I may have been influenced without knowing it, but did not steal anyone’s idea. Just a disclaimer.
Note: Profanity may be used, you’ve been warned.
Diary Entry #20:
Whoa. It has definitely been a long time since I’ve opened this up. Its definitely a little dusty..whoops. What dad and grandma don’t know won’t hurt them right? Then again my dad swears grandma haunts our very lives since she always threatened she would after she died. Grandma did have a sinister sense of humor at times. But, that’s not important at the moment. This diary is about me right? Err supposed to be anyway…I might have to recap since the last entry. As you know, me and Cale have broken up. Its been about two months now? Good riddance is all I have to say. Hopefully whatever girl he’s bossing around is for him. You also know that me and An have decided to plan another trip as soon as possible Simchina. Fortunately, its already taken this long. Two months. I haven’t been known for my patience so I’m starting to become more antsy everyday.
“Ugh, why are there no listings about traveling aboard yet!” anger gritting through my teeth
“I’m sure there is a logical explanation for it. Plus, you keep checking every day that its starting to drive you mad.” An explained
I really wasn’t in the mood for his proper explanations.
“An, please do not do that right now. For once can’t you just let your emotions take over. I know you’re as frustrated as me. You just are better at keeping your cool.”
“Oh? Hehe does it really bother you that much?”
He knew how to annoy me, and yet make me laugh when I didn’t want to. Damn him.
“Oh is that smile and small laugh I hear coming from you Miss Ashylnn?” he sarcastically said
“Haha damn you for knowing my weaknesses. But, seriously I want to know why. This is important to me. I need to do this. I need to help those families.” I pleaded
“I know I’m sorry. I was just trying to, um..lighten the mood I believe is what you say here?”
“I appreciate it An, but I want to figure this out sooner than later.”
“Maybe you should email them? I’m sure if you showed a peak interest in one that isn’t listed, and mentioned that you’ve visited there previously it would look very good. Almost like a resume? Of course mention he activities you did for the natives and the educational purposes. I think that’s the best you can do. I can try to get some of the professors I know in the program to vouch for us.” he listed off
“An, that’s genius! But, you’d really do that for me? I mean that’s a lot of work and asking such a request could ruin your prime reputation in the program right? ” I frowned a little
“It could yes, but I love your enthusiasm about helping these people. You are truly a great person, and I want to do everything I can to help.”
“Oh, An. You’re so sweet. Thank you so much. You’re a good friend.”
“You’re very welcome Miss Ashlynn.” he smiled
“I still don’t like that title, but thank you.” I smiled back
An of course helped me write the email. My emotions can cloud my word judgment and make me sound incredibly stupid. I was glad to have him here. Actually, I’m glad we could become friends and remain friends. I can only imagine how much of a third wheel he felt like when it was all three of us. That was completely unfair to him. But, I do remember something quite fondly from that trip. Towards the end of our journey, when he mentioned the rising tension among the different cultures in the region. Not much coverage has been done by our media yet, so I don’t know much about the current situation. Sadly, only people really listen and care until it becomes too late. I wanted to ask An since I’m sure he’s kept up with it daily. I could only hope I wasn’t crossing any lines.
“An, remember when you mentioned the rising tensions among the people of the differing cultures throughout the region?”
“Hmm? Oh yes. I do remember. Why do you ask?”
“Well, curiosity may have killed the cat, but just how bad is it over there? I drew back, afraid to know the actual truth
“Ahh well you know you don’t have to worry about that right?” he fake smiled
“An. Please. I know you’ve been keeping up with it, I can see it on your face. Just like me, you aren’t a good liar. This concerns me. Not only as an citizen of this world, but if I’m going to be granted to travel there, I need to know the situation and be on guard.”
“You’re right, I am not a good liar. I have been keeping up with the Chinese news because I’m worried about my parents and family members. So far, it hasn’t reached anything to be too hostile. But, I’m afraid to say that I think things could change quickly.”
“What is going on there that could bring about such change?” I frowned again
“Sadly, its the conflicting cultures as I mentioned before. But, that’s only scratching the surface. The problem is, the surrounding regions are rich and booming with industry and population growth. The region we went to, is in the center of those regions and the weakest link if you will. The pressure is being applied for them to go from a traditional farming community to an industrious economy. And as you mentioned before, that would bring devastation to the families. Their only knowledge is on how to use the lay of the land. So now what’s happening is, that there are politicians and wealthy business moguls form the other reasons invading the current region. They’re devising plans to change the economy drastically. As for as I know is that they’ve won over the current government governing with the promise of wealth and prosperity so big changes are underway.” he rendered
“What? Are you serious. They can’t do that.”
“Yes I know. Its just hard to talk about. The sad part is I’m not even done yet. The locals have finally caught on to their schemes and have started to revolt, but have failed miserably. Many lives have been taken. The opposition is using brute force to make sure everyone is on their side, and that means bringing troops in to make sure they swear allegiance to the new ideals of their government. But, their government has been brainwashed by money and really its the wealthy business leaders calling the shots. This has scared everyone.”
What a tragedy. I couldn’t believe what An was telling me. How horrible can these people be? Taking innocent lives. Simply should not happen. These people need someone to help them revolt. Being scared for their lives just to live where they’re people started on the land and have survived using that very same land. I could feel tears starting to swell up in my eyes. I may not know what that’s like from a first hand experience, but I could feel their pain. Their cries for help.
“That’s so sad. I couldn’t imagine fearing my life like that. To live in my own home but afraid of dying at the hands of my own people.” I whispered
“Please don’t cry Ashlynn. I don’t think I could bare to see it.” An frowned
“How can’t I? Its so sad. All I want to do is help them but yet I feel so useless.”
“You can help them, and you know what? We will help them. We will make it there one way or another. We may not be an army, but two people can make a difference in some way.”
“What? I’ve never heard you talk so confidently like that An.” I was very surprised
“I think you’re braveness is starting to wear off on me.” he chuckled pulling me into a hug
“Haha, well good. I’m glad someone appreciates my personality.”
Diary Entry #21:
Some things did happen with the family! My aunts Delia and Taryn got married recently. My dad always told us how grandma and grandpa told them their careers are important so that’s what his sisters did. They focused on their careers before having men in their lives. Now in their older age, they’ve found their prince charmings. I think its bittersweet. Aunt Delia married a Chinese doctor she’s worked with for years, Wei. Aunt Taryn married a local man she has known since high school apparently, Marlin Beamer.
Hmm what else, oh! I’m sure you remember me mentioning my brother Leon getting married to some woman? Well we finally met her. She’s very nice despite her looks. Her name is Sofia. And my mom was right, she was pregnant that’s why they got a shotgun marriage. They had a beautiful daughter, her name is Angeline. Such a pretty name for a pretty girl. Its weird seeing Leon as a dad. He’s so good with her though. I’m sure having three younger sisters helped with that. Actually its weird knowing I’m officially an Aunt myself. Doesn’t seem possible haha. Angeline looks just like Leon though, its crazy. She has his nose and our family’s famous dark blue eyes. Thanks to Grandma. She has her mom’s bright blonde hair. Definitely glad I can call her my niece. Lastly, my sister Violet has a boyfriend! His name is Willard I believe. We think he’s a little bit older, and my dad is a little concerned about that. I could care less about that. I’m happy for her is all.
I guess I should mention that its been about a month since I sent that heartfelt email. An hasn’t been around lately to tell me anything about it. He’s been busy with many of the other international students. Funny though, in a way I do kinda miss him being around. He lightens up the mood when he’s around. But, out of the blue yesterday he did call me so we could talk. His tone was a little unsettling because he was so serious. Made me nervous about what he had to say.
“Hey, glad you called.” I let out a little smile
“Sorry its been so long. Been busy.” he replied, avoiding eye contact
“Is something wrong?”
*sighs* “Yes and no. I’m going to just be honest with you. Our request was declined respectfully. I’m just very disappointed and didn’t want to tell you because I know how you would feel. I wasn’t necessarily avoiding it, but I knew it would be hard to do.”
“Oh. I see. Did they say why?” I questioned
“Uhh once again, yes and no. They didn’t go into great detail but they explained that things are far too dangerous over there, and it wouldn’t be safe to send students due to liability issues. Things have came true I’m afraid.” he grimaced
“What does that mean exactly? You know I don’t like vague answers An.”
“What that means is that they aren’t allowing outside visitors and tourists into the country through the program. Its not safe because as I told you a many weeks ago, the locals who have been forced to swear allegiance are divided. Some have joined the opposition willingly and have killed their own people who disagree with their ideals. The rest have forced to stay indoors and fear their lives. But, by swearing allegiance and to keep safe they aren’t associated with outsiders. The government despises foreign visitors . They think we’re corrupting their people and will do nothing to stop us needless to say. Meaning if we were to go, our lives would be in great danger.”
“Are you serious? You mean we could potentially die if were to over there?” my eyes widened at the reality
“Yes. School can’t be responsible for our lives like that. I’m sure you understand that much.” his demeanor changing
I was a loss for words. I could die? That thought radiated throughout my body. I started to respond to the fear physically. I could feel my hands become sweaty, and I started breaking into a cold sweat. My legs felt restless. It was like I was staring death in the face. It was so surreal.
“Ashlynn, are you alright? Looks like you’ve seen a ghost.”
Oh right. I’m still in a conversation. Glad An’s voice broke my thoughts. I started to think too much about the situation.The very scary situation I could be in.
“What should we do? Just forget about everything? I mean. I know that’s its a stupid thing to do. Put yourself in the line of the enemy, but….but they need help. I mean An. How? What should we?…”
“I’m not entirely sure. I know how passionate you are, and I, myself am very worried. I’ll have to think it over.” he turned away
“Oh I see. I hope there is something we can do. But, if not…don’t feel bad An okay? I don’t want you feeling guilty. You did everything you could, and I greatly appreciate it. ” I half-smiled
“Thank you Miss Ashlynn. That means a lot. I’ll see what I come up with.”
Diary Entry #22:
Sorry I haven’t really wrote for few weeks. Guess the news An broke really shook me, and brought me down. Lately, I’ve just been moping around the house and helping my parents out. Lately, I’ve noticed how they’ve really started to age, and show their age. Its amazing how its happening before my eyes and I haven’t noticed until now. Mom’s hair has started to grey, so she’s been dying it. She’s determined to stay young as long as she can. Dad on the other hand, he’s embracing aging. He still acts like a lovesick teenager when he’s around mom. They’re more love than Leon and Sofia are I think haha. They definitely emulate something I hope you have.
My parents have kinda forgot about me actually living here, and have been living their lives too. My mom is head chef the bistro in town and isn’t showing any signs of slowing down. Dad is still on the force, and has started to get back on doing more on-hands jobs. He’s not as scared anymore. Then there’s me. Doing nothing. I hate it so much. I need to be doing something out here, not here. I feel so trapped in this house. There’s nothing for me to do here. All I could do was be on the computer all day. Lately, I’ve been researching what’s been going on Chinese new sites and attempting to translate what’s been going on. Doing my research needless to say. Things were worse like An feared. So many unnecessary deaths. It was heartbreaking to see the images and read the heart wrenching words. These people are desperate for help, and are pleading for their lives. I can’t stand around and just watch these horrible crimes happen.
Diary Entry #23:
I called An today. I had to talk to him about everything that’s been going on. I mean, Christ its been a month of no word and no action. I’m not a patient woman, and let’s just say I’m done waiting. I’m doing something whether anyone likes it or not. An needs to hear me out, and hear my thoughts on this. I may have been a scared little girl when he explained things to me, but I have my mind made up now. I am going there. If I need to join the fight, I will. Those people can’t fight it alone.
“You wanted to talk Ash-” he started
“First off, let me just talk and get what I need to say. I am going to help those people who need us. I don’t care if the university said no, and I don’t care if you agree or not. Its not fair that we just sit by and watch without acting. While we sit here comfortably in our own homes and fear nothing, they have to fear even leaving their damn house! I won’t stand for that.” I cut in
“Uh…um, I don’t know what to say Ashlynn. I’ll uh…”
“I’m not done An. Now, I don’t know if you’re going to help me by coming with, but you will tell me everything I need to know and want to know. I know I may sound like a bitch right now, but I need to say what’s on my mind. Plus, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about this. I didn’t just think of this overnight.”
“Are you finished?” his lips slowly turned into a grin
“Um, yeah. Yes. I am. ” I sighed
“Well, I’ve been doing some research fro us, err and for you mainly. There is a way we can go. We just go as regular people. No one sponsoring us. Just me and you as travelers.”
“Of course I’m sure you know how risky that is. We’d be going straight into the enemy’s den. No one will probably help us, but if we could document the things we see, then maybe we could gain more followers? At least that’s what I was thinking. I just kept thinking about the things you said, and what you just told me only reassures me in my decision. I checked and there are still flights open to travel there.” he explained
“Wait, are you being serious? We can just buy a plane ticket and waltz right in pretty much?”
“Yes. But, Ashlynn I need to stress the risk. I know you understood what I said. But, I need you to do more than understand the words. You need to know that there’s an immense amount of risk. You’re life will be threatened the whole time. I can’t guarantee your safety. I may look like I know my around, but I have never been in any danger, and cannot promise I can keep you alive. Of course, I would like to think I could but we need to face the facts. I’m only one man, and you are only one woman. The odds don’t look very good if we run into trouble.”
“Yes I know. That’s what I was thinking about these past few days when I was doing my own research about the events happening. I’ve come to realize that I’d rather be out there risking my life than sitting here living it.” I smiled at how passionate I sounded
“That’s one of my favorite things about you Miss Ashlynn. You are so passionate and determined. More women need that kind of spunk like you have.” he smiled back
“But, are you sure you want to jump on the bandwagon with me? I would never want to put you at risk because of something I want. This has to be a partnership.”
“No no. Of course it will. I’m all in this as much as you are. That’s why I gathered information for us. So we could talk about it, and set up a game plan.”
“An, that’s been the best news I’ve heard in about two months. Thank you so much.” I hugged him
“You’re very welcome.” his smile widening
Diary Entry #24:
So we made the arrangements and booked our flights. We tried to book one as soon as possible, but it was another two weeks before we would descend for Simchina. I was both excited and unsure about what would happen. I definitely wasn’t scared yet. I wasn’t sure if I should be scared from the beginning or not. I figured it was better to stay calm for as long as I can. So far so good. I just hope that we find some answers and methods to help these people. When we landed, our jeep ride from the airport was so quiet. It was quiet, but with serenity. I forgot how breathtaking the view was. Nature here was so calming. It made me forget about all of the political dilemma’s stirring up. During our jeep ride to the town we once lived in for eight months, An told me we’d be dropped off at the same inn. The driver actually remembered us, and told us that’s where he would drop us off at. Didn’t realize we were so impressionable. Or maybe it was Cale’s whining the whole time haha.
“Its so quiet.” I finally whispered, taking in the scenery
“Yeah, about that.” An scratched his head awkwardly
“What, what is it?”
“We can’t exactly stay at the inn. I tried making reservations and the family who runs it remembers us, but refuses to house us because we are travelers and not natives. They could be persecuted and they aren’t about to take that chance. Soooo we’re on our own from now on.”
“Is that what the sleeping bags you brought with are for?” I raised one eyebrow
“Umm…yes. I probably should of mentioned that sooner, but I figured you were prepared for the worst. Sorry.” he sheepishly smiled
“No, please don’t be sorry. Its just setting in is all. Its always one thing to talk about it, and another thing to experience it.”
We didn’t do too much the first day. We figured we go see the one family we focused on for those eight months. See how our improvements were working for them. If they still practiced the more modern way of doing things. I would only hope they were continuing on. I was happy to visit them again, and couldn’t wait to see the mother-son duo I worked so closely with.
When we arrived, An told me to stay back while he knocked on the door and let me know who we were. I still found the silence to be eerie. It was still too quiet. The ponds that surrounded their home seemed to be mute. There weren’t frogs or birds chirping their songs. I felt no presence whatsoever. That’s until An came back with a frown on his face. Things didn’t look good.
“What happened?” I gently reached out my hand
“Things aren’t good here.” he sighed
“Were they home?”
“Yes, they were.”
“What did they say when you knocked and mentioned who you were?” my eyes trailed up to meet his
“你是外地. 逃離！我們不希望你在這裡種!” An repeated what they said
I only knew one of the words, which was outsiders. That couldn’t of been good. I was afraid to ask for the full translation, but An nodded and he knew I was going to ask.
“She called us outsiders, to get away and that they don’t want our kind here.”
“Yes. I know.”
“Are you okay?” I frowned
“I’ll manage. But, that was harder to take than I expected. Never thought I’d be called an outsider.” he winced
“Shall we set up camp somewhere for now? I take it we’ll have to find and make our own food, so we could fish some and set up a fire?”
“Yeah, that sounds like a good idea.”
And that’s what we did. We found a spot along the river just outside of town, along the main road. We figured we would be safe there. We were close enough to town if we had any problems or needed essentials. But, we were hidden well so wouldn’t be easily detected. It was like living life as a fugitive on the run. We had huge hiking and camping bags we carried around with everything we would need. We went fishing for awhile, and caught as much as we could eat based on the size of fish we caught. While I did most of that, An built a fire so we could cook them up. We didn’t talk much. I felt like it wasn’t a good time to bring up some things since I knew An was hurting. We just sat there in silence and enjoyed each other’s company.
Then it was nightfall. We both knew we had to sleep eventually and be up early morning so we could move out. I think we both were frightened at the idea of sleeping and being defenseless. Sure we had “weapons” that could be defensive, but nothing we wanted to use. An finally broke the silence and told me to go to sleep. He promised to sleep with one eye open and stay up as long as he could. Though it was comforting, I still had a hard time sleeping that night.
Credits: An Li is a sim made by simnights, and poses used was Sweet Couple pose by berrysweetshoppe. Thank you very much 🙂
Okay! I’m finally done! As I mentioned, lots of dialog and I actually shortened this chapter haha. Realized I took wayyyy too many pictures, so you should be proud 🙂 I hope you enjoyed this chapter, I had a fun time playing and writing it. The ideas are finally flowing and I have big plans for this generation 🙂 Just hope everyone can handle them. The 3 month hiatus is finally over! wooo!